RE: How do I use Fear?

Welcome! Life is happening right now. Let us experience it in its full beauty.

Last night I attended a session of a monthly spiritual class. The lesson was about living happily in every moment and realizing that nothing that is happening is not of God.

This article is in response to a blog prompt from DungeonPrompts. You might go there and find it and the blog responses interesting and helpful.

My first reaction to the prompt is that I don’t like Fear and I don’t want to have Fear in my life. This is always a big challenge because I find that the way out of fear is to develop a love of Fear and an understanding of its greater purpose in my life. That is right — I must love Fear. At the same time, fear is the mindkiller. Fear is the little death. Fear blinds me and pushes reality away. Yet fear of fear is fear. 🙂 (more…)


14 Things I know will help transition me from negative to positive thinking in any moment.

Welcome all! I was feeling a bit grumpy this morning. I noted it most prominently when a guy cut in front of us as we pulled off of Highway 99 into downtown. I got angry beyond what felt comfortable to me.

So I am recalling 14 things that I know that help me transition to a positive frame of mind.


Language, Intimacy and Social Norms

Welcome! Today I’m taking a day off of my normal work and enjoying a day of self-care, reflection, and contemplation. It’s like a perfect day for this — sun shining etc…

I started off today with a 1-hour float in salt-infused water at Seattle Float. During these floats I often meditate. During these meditations I often think on questions and see what answers come to me. Normally this takes me to the question, “Who am I?”


Snow Angel

When did life begin?
What means this lifetime?
What will come of me?
Who am I?

Inside a womb
Alone and yet not alone
To be born and feel lost
I think therefore I am

I can no longer remember how this started
Here spread eagle in the snow waiting to freeze
Waving my arms and legs to make a difference
Just me and my Snow Angel

When did my Snow Angel come to me?
What would I be without him?
Where could I possibly find such a friend as he has been?
Who am I to question his thoughts?

In darkest despair I created him
I am lost without my Snow Angel
He is my guide, friend and protector
If I go without his guidance I am lost

My Snow Angel came to save me
My Snow Angel knows how to survive
My Snow Angel is my only true friend and protector
I am Love and this is how I know my Snow Angel is confused

When did my confusion begin?
What can take its place?
Where can I be free of it?
Who am I to be sane?

There exists a knowing in me that I have been always aware
In separation from God I can know only despair
In forgiveness, humility, and connection to source is my true self
I am Love

My sincerity has never been in doubt in darkest times
My Love has been always there waiting for me
In the arms of my true self I create no Snow Angels
I am that I am

Trains Trains Trains…

Welcome! It is with great love that I hope for you that in this moment you are happy and feeling good.

It has been a while since I blogged, but I have been busy all this time living, loving, and learning. So I have more stories to tell you all.

Today I’m writing about part of an excellent business trip I took to Italy last month. It was a wonderful trip, and, since it was my first to Europe, it was full of learning.

I knew that in Europe they have a lot of trains, so I was excited to travel by train there. I planned on my final day there to take a trip from Turin to Milan. This is about a fifty-minute train ride. (more…)

For The Abused And The Abuser

Welcome! Another flight, another blog post. Today I’m off to Vegas to visit my good friend Justin, a long-time friend who is in the process of moving back there. I get to spend a couple of days geeking out and hanging out. I’m looking forward to the wonderful experience of hanging out with him.

But this post is not really about that friendship or my trip to Vegas. It’s about a time before that. It’s about a darker time in my life, a time when I was more scared, angry, and given to allow my darker side free rein. (more…)

of Forgiveness, Love, and Happiness

Welcome! Today I’m on an airplane so I get a chance to sit and think, and visit with someone I thought I didn’t know. The couple next to me are traveling on family business and the husband and I shared and talked about a wide variety of subjects. It’s so natural for me to just strike up conversations or respond when others do. It’s super comfortable for me.

This got me thinking, why? Why is it that I can move from person to person and come and go from conversations with complete strangers as if I have known them for years? (more…)